I can hardly catch my breath. It almost feels like I'm having an anxiety attack. As fast as I jump in I want out. They put the ladder down...I'm in the boat. I have no idea what just happened...I still can't really catch my breath, the only thing I know is that I have had some sort of spiritual experience. I know I will need to ask the Lord about what happened.
"There's nothing but water, what is there to see?"
"Just go back out there and look under the water."
I've got my wits about me and I begin to float face down eyes wide open....AWWWWW BEAUTY!!!!
I again get out and know that something spiritual just happened.
It's one thing to stand in the ocean ankle deep as the waves lap over your feet. Then we move a little farther out where we are about waist deep...and we keep tiptoeing out until our shoulders are under. We then move a bit farther and then we can't touch...that always makes me a little scary. What if something comes to nibble on my toes?
3,000 feet of water under me, a vast horizon of an endless ocean. I jumped right in. It scared me but I knew I had to do it. I had a choice but I didn't really, I didn't want to miss this chance. And then to increase the experience I got back in...relaxed and looked under the water.
I want to be all in with the Lord, I don't want to hang out knee deep in the water. I want to be consumed by Him...ALL OF ME. I am very much in a season of asking the Lord where am I not all in? Where am I holding back parts of my heart from you? Where am I choosing to do things on my own? I want to give him all things, find him all things, because he's created all things. Search my heart Lord and give me the courage to jump right in, relax and see the light breaking through.
Death By Burpees
Minute 1..do 1 burpee...wait for minute 2 to start
Minute 2....do 2 burpees...wait for minute 3 to start
Minute 3...wait for mintue 4 to start
and on and on until you can no longer fit burpees into the minute. The first few rounds will be easy...but hold on tight, it gets good around round 6 or 7....
Have Fun, Train Hard.
Lu, you've done it again. Beautiful words. Challenging words. Relate-able words. What a gift you are.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Fiona! In Hank Hanegraaf's book, The Prayer of Jesus, in chapter 9 he talks about something that goes so well with what you wrote! It's an AMAZING book, but I really loved that chapter and this quote: "Deep is where we step out of the shallow tidepool of our hearts into the boundless ocean of God's power and presence." I love this post, as I am walking-or swimming-lately, in a similar place with the same desires you express so well. Thanks for sharing as you follow Him. :)
ReplyDeleteThere is no doubt in my mind that you will go ALL of the places the Lord is and will be calling you to Lu. Deeper than you can even imagine. Love the way you do not hesitate in taking the plunge and being an example to so many. Sure, anyone can talk the talk, but are they willing to take action?? You reminded me of some of the Old Testament prophets whom a lot of the time did an "action" in order to illustrate the prophetic word they were trying to get across the people. Love you friend:)
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